Remembering Gatsby

 


At the western tip in the island’s night,

Bereft of stars, bereft of light

I stared at a sea I couldn’t see,

I breathed the emptiness inside me

 

The saving grace was a distant beam

A saber of gold, a lighthouse gleam

The world reminding, there’s something to fight –

A ray of hope, a distant light

 

But even there, the truth had a lie,

It came, it went, in the blink of an eye

As if, the earth will give – but not all you need

If you ask for a tree, you’ll find a seed…

____________________________________________

 

Of all the thoughts that I left behind,

It was Gatsby great who came to mind,

His light in green across the bay,

Always there, but so far away

 

Where every tale has a Daisy bloom,

A spark of light in a sea of gloom,

Come, disappear as you please,

Or bestow some hope across the seas

 

Just like the lighthouse spark of gold

A tropic of warmth in a bay of cold

You can stretch your arms as far as you can,

The light spills out, uncaught by man

____________________________________________

 

At the western edge, on the island Neil,

The seas run black, no longer teal,

When darkness falls, it’s all the same

The tidal swell, or the lagoon’s that tamed

 

But from farther west, see Port Blair’s light,

A flicker pale, in an inky night

The lighthouse calls like a distant star –

You can come back now, you have gone too far

 

There’s desolation too in the smell of peace –

Detachment in the cerulean seas,

A handful few find themselves back

The others stare at the lighthouse track…

____________________________________________

 

In my sojourns in the Andaman, I had landed at Neil and was privileged to stay at the westernmost point of the Island. Perched on the cliffs overlooking the white sandiness of Laxmanpur Beach, I saw fabulous sunsets, incredible sunrises, I found art strewn in the dying blanched driftwood as much as in the wooden pillars of Mahua life. I saw from far, the emeraldine cliffs of Havelock and even farther away, barely discernible line that was the South Andaman Island. And yet, the scene that stole my heart was none of these – in a pitch-black no moon night, I stared towards Port Blair and saw an ochre lighthouse gleam at night, reminding as if that its not all emptiness, even the lands here have their share of stellar joy. I spent almost an hour standing on the cliff top, staring at the twinkling light, and hearing the calming chorus of the sea, many a thought running through my mind. Predominantly, that of Gatsby, the Great Gatsby and his tantalising green light from his beloved Daisy’s dock. In that moment of philosophy, I wondered if all of us had a Gatsby inside, yearning agonisingly for that green light, disappearing and re-appearing in the mists of life. For some perhaps, it is quite distinct. For others, perhaps, that green light has been hid or lost in the fogs of everyday, and they wait for that moment, when they find a proxy - perhaps a shimmering star or a beckoning lighthouse, and that green unreachable light comes back all over again. Lost and found, hid and recovered, just like the glimmer of a lighthouse from far, far away…

 

17th May. 2024

Comments

Popular Posts